The Notion of Selfless Love

When the day began, I decided to help an intern out by sorting out scripts for her, which was her task.

I started doing it around 10pm. Midway through this, she finished the rest of her other work and hurried off.

And as I looked at the pile of unstapled, unsorted scripts in front of me, the first thing I felt was, wah.. This isn't even my responsibility and you dare to run off without helping me do your work?

And then, I saw how human I was. So grudging, so unwilling. So selfish. Really am falling short of whatever quality I have.

So, a newfound respect for God appears. 

The Silence of God

I was tasked to do the bible study topic based on Psalms, and it was on "The Apparent Silence of God."

In the midst of uncovering what the silence of God means, I stumbled upon the term "Deep calls to deep." It is from Psalms 42:7- Deep calls to deep in the roar of your waterfalls." The psalmist is trying to express that it is necessary to delve deeper, to gain more, rather than skim the surface and leave it.

After singing the song that uses this phrase and never understanding it until today, I think there is now a need for me to go further. Where to, I don't know, but God's path that's for sure.

Let me hope and pray that I will not succumb to the distractions of the world, and be disciples enough so that when God is in facts speaking to me, I will not mistake it for silence.

Whip it up

I don't usually cook. No, correction. I don't cook. But since I was on welfare duty for shoot, I had to whip up some tantalizing treats for the cast and crew.

Turkey bacon with Golden Mushroom

Celery with tuna in cream cheese

And so, today I decided to cook my very own Portabello Mushroom with bacon. I forgot to get the cheese sadly, and so...

Looks not bad right.

Taadaa! My first meal not involving instant noodles and a man called Campbell.

Before I forget

From the (timely) dating workshop with the YA people, my favorite parts:

Do not think you can bring a person to Christ through an unequal yoke relationship. 

- I once thought that it's possible. But what I did was to set a really bad example :(

Purity

- Must remember to safeguard ourselves as well as our better halves against compromising circumstances. 

There is a range of people made for you.

- a lot of people can be The One. Fun fact: Neo in the Matrix, was the 6th one

What you see is what you get

-people change, but not much.

There is never a reason to be unkind in a relationship

- We got into a pretty foul mood once, but I still continued to hold his hand, and appreciated the fact he held my hand back, and tightly. 

If you are not content when you are single, you will not be content when you are attached.

The Valentine

In light of the upcoming Valentine's Day that I usually don't quite care for because I have been single in most of my 26 years on earth, I must confess now that I will be enjoying that evening in the comfort of the basement car park classroom in my church. Because there is cell groups that day.

Without my valentine.

Because Jesus is the lover of my soul. He is of most importance. Sadly, there's also shoot the next day so I better not have other plans lest I have to work overtime to prepare for the shoot.

But I do bring good news about my valentine, about the person whom I met, talked to, started SMS-ing, started going out with, realizing how we both like the same kind of jokes, dinosaurs, and above all, being attracted by his love for Christ. 

I am really, really happy to fling my arms up in joy and declare,"I'm attached!!" 

And it is really nothing less than the love of God that led us together. Nothing less than the power of God that uncomplicate matters that are humanly complicated.

Taadaa. 

This is Zhi Rong. One can say he is the Rong person for me. But another can also say that I am also the Rong girl for him. Geddit?

 Surprise, Justin :)

Anyway, he is of course upset that we cannot spend Vday together, but he has consoled himself by saying,"never mind lar, can save money on that day since it will be expensive everywhere."

Heehee. Thank you Lord for this awesome man. 

Vietnam Chinese New Year

The family is going to Vietnam!

For Chinese New Year, for reasons-I-deduced-which-involves-avoiding-questions-about-certain-missing-family-members.

I didn't really want to go, as my New Year has evolved into a movie date night with my precious TKK gang on day 1, lots of sleeping on day 2, and this year day 3 is a Sunday!

But, you know, family. They trump so many other things. 

So, I'm going. With a changed heart by then I hope. I need to throw away my grudged attitude and enjoy some Vietnam coffee.

Will I be able to do so in the next 2 weeks? I can't say PHO sure!

But I'll try. 

2014

The year has barely started and I'm now in bed at 2.30pm, with a nasty cough and a really tired mind.

My December really caught up with me. 

Looking at the workload of 2014, I am shuddering with fear and doubt. It's so much more than what we handled in the past. Wanfong asked if I had prayed for this year's plans, I said uh, not yet. I really want 2014 to be a restful year, after 2013 proved to be a mad journey, but a good one. I guess God often presents Himself at our breaking points.

2013 proved that God is more than real. 

Well, as always, let's go back to the Word for encouragement. "Fear not, for I have redeemed you. I have called you by name and you are mine!"