When he gets to purgatory, he sees a glimpse of heaven, and he is eager to draw the beauty surrounding him. But there are no paints in this particular place. He meets with a Spirit to lament over this fact that he cannot draw out the beauty of the place. The Spirit replies, "you're supposed to look at the place, observe it, take it in, but not draw it. The beauty of it is right in front of your eyes! The paintings and drawings you do on Earth are copies of the real creation, they do not display the Creator's glorious work. "
"Yes I understand the beauty of it. Therefore, I must draw it!"
"Well, if you're interested in the view only for the sake of drawing it, you'll never learn anything about it!"
That quite stumped me.
How many times have I been guilty of wanting to be a Christian but not truly understanding who is Christ? Leading worship and bible study because I'm "good enough"? Making videos for church and getting praised for my skills? Priding myself on always being in church despite having a busy schedule?
Pretty sure, at least 10 times throughout my 5 years of Christian walk, and I'm being modest here. I believe if you add another digit, that'll be closer to the actual number.
Let me now offer a sordid reminder to myself- Christ should be the reason for all. I think, by this reason alone, I am now broken into a million pieces.
Ok.. Calm down.
Hello God.
