3 Weddings, No Funeral Please.

3 weddings for 3 consecutive weekends is no joke, to both the bones and the wallet.

Finally, no more for this weekend! Thankfully, unlike the movie "4 Weddings and a Funeral", there is no funeral and no extra wedding. There is, however, production this Saturday!

Sigh. Pray for strength.

Not Just For Your Goodness, But For You.

I think I led the last 3 years of my Christian walk yearning for God's goodness. I praised Him when He was good, and when the going got tough, I hinged on His promises and I pursued His treasures, well, the tangible ones at least.

For the past few weeks, in a serendipitous manner, He revealed to me what He wanted from me. I discovered this while 1) Chatting over New Year's Eve, 2) Reading the book Joyce gave called "Drawing Near".

Reverence, for Him, not His works in my life.

Fear of Him, as in respecting His authority as a king, rather than being afraid because you sin.

Change, which He will do in my life, my heart, my attitude.

Wow. This whole idea of experiencing Him, rather than focus on what He has done, is actually new to me. I guess as I kept singing the song, Open the Eyes of My Heart, Lord, He really did.

For a while, after church camp, I thought, how come people are touched by the Spirit only in camp, but not in everyday living? How can I be touched every single living day? I don't want to be filled only in camp- that's only about 4 times of the year if I go for all camps, yes, even Children's Camp. I don't want to be holy only on Sunday. In my little warped mind, that's akin to going to hell for 6 days and heaven for 1.

So, for the past few weeks, I've been trying to comprehend and grasp the concept of how to Experience God. It's a little daunting of course. If you see His face, you'll die. His glory is too much for any soul to bear! But I do, I do want to draw near, to go closer. I asked a friend, so... do I get to see Him? A little light perhaps? A physical manifestation?

He replied, nope. The way we look at things are from logical, human ways. God is not meant to be experienced in that way. You know you are experiencing God when your heart is molded, changed, you know you are experiencing God when you know something that is beyond you, which can only come from Him. His perfection may feel far for us mere mortals, but look, He's here, right beside us, walking beside us in that narrow path that leads to His perfection.

I found so much comfort, so much love in that above conversation. And so, Lord, here I am, to pursue You, to chase after You and Your ways. Not just because You bless O Lord, but because You are the King.

Hit The Ground Running.

I'm exhausted after 3 days of 2013.

Shows that I'm old huh?

I'm in between 3 weddings, and a choke-full of deadlines. Did I mention there's a shoot tomorrow?

Yeap. Things are looking quite bad.

But I refuse to lament further. By faith, I will conquer all! It's war time!!!